When Natascha was screaming in pain, they were twins. She was the strong one. She had playmates from the first day in kindergarden, while Mathias was playing alone. She beat up the kids who harassed him, while he was standing by. Mathias is 11 years old today. When Natascha died of cancer they were both seven. Today he's sitting in the livingroom, beating on his keyboard, playing a game on the computer, while his parents are talking about their grief. He has a hard time concentrating on the game, while his parents are talking about his sister. "You're crying all the time, Mom!" he says out loud, while his mother Jeanette talks about the sound of Nataschas shoes, that she still hears from time to time, as if she's running around outside the house.